the mayhem that surrounds me

This semester started off at a rough patch
Unaware, I was sucked into a gloomy environment of gossip and superficiality
The environment can really affect a person
Without the usual routine of bible study last semester
I slowly lost touch with God

Eventually, I got more and more moody
I didn't like where I was but I did nothing to change it
I ignored that feeling that kept pestering me

telling me that "something is not right" 
as I surround myself with useless fun and laughter
derived from making fun of others

Its not like its stop now
the feeling continues on
the gossip continues on
but at least now I see the clear picture

I shall be more careful
I shall close my ears to all these pointless chatter
I only can pray and seek His guidance to help me through this

Yesterday I confined my issues to a friend
Even though the issue is not absolutely solved
she gave me new perspective
which I could accept to ease my uneasy heart
I thank God He placed her in my life

But yet again the question of Christianity kicks in
I've learned again and again for countless times
that a Christian should not place a non-Christian as their closest friends
as the word of God and faith should be shared between really good friends

And still, Faith and God is not a topic between us
So God, what is this?